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Hi everyone! Monday, bloody Monday, the start of a new week. Can you believe that it's nearly the end of January?? This year is going to fly by so fast, I don't know what to make of it!

I've been getting confused with the days of the week as i've been at work so much, even though today really did feel like a weekday as it was so much quieter and less busy than any of our weekend days (Friday-Sunday). Today, nearly everyone found out if they had been promoted or not (that's the literal way of explaining things without sounding confusing!). I mean, obviously I haven't worked at Cyberdog for very long so I don't really know the whole "political" side of things, but to quickly break the situation down;

Each area has a specialist, kind of like the "boss" of that area (of course, the managers are the "boss" of everything but these are people specifically assigned to take over this area - i.e. specialist) and then you get a "2nd" which I guess is like a deputy? So when the "boss" is not working, the "2nd" will be working instead.

So, anyway, current specialists and those who are not specialists found out today if they would be taking over a new area, or being "upgraded" (if you like) to a 2nd, or indeed specialist! It was exciting to hear what everyone would be doing, and congratulations! I've never really been in a position where you could get some kind of "promotion". Sure, at the hospital I was given way more things to do and such because I was reliable and more trusted than the others but I didn't really see it as a promotion, more as a few extra things added to my list. It's all a bit confusing, but nevertheless, as long as everyone is still happy with what they're doing, then that's great!

I guess I wanted to mention something that some people may have been wondering for a little while...Since the end of Hib, I have tried to not really post in the Gal Communites (lj, ricoche etc), not because I don't want to or am not interested anymore, but because of all the stuff that went down, I just kind of wanted to distance myself from it. I can tell you, not being in a Gal Circle and having frequent meets and seeing your friends on a regular basis is so weird! I think it's been, what...maybe like 6 months or something since it ended? It's been a quick 6 months, and it's also been a really nice 6 months too. I think i'm now a more relaxed person than I used to be, and my attitude has definitely calmed down. Yes I have said things in the past that have caused outrage and so on, but the majority of the time while Hib was still active, I wasn't the "horrible person" people made me out to be. I think it's the pressure of being a "leader" or "in charge", and I guess that can kind of go to your head. I definitely wasn't abusing my "role", but I think that because of the facade that I had, I was definitely misunderstood.

I think this break from the Gal Community for the past half a year has been a welcome change. If anything, i'm so different now! If anything, i'm more shy lol! I work all the time, and I don't even get much time to see Dec, Floz, Caryn and Georgie anymore, let alone Emmie and Lucie and Kei, and all the old Hib members! This is what I mean about how weird it is not being in a Circle. It kind of feels like a break up haha! Writing this was kind of due to the Gal Secrets post about UK Gals, and that the Hib logo was used as the photo. To be honest, the most active UK Gals in the scene right now are Lhouraii, Delight and Majikko girls! I think the New Year will be a good change, as I want to be able to meet some of the UK Gals (we haven't all met, contrary to popular belief) and see what they're up to!

On a lighter note, thank you to the person who posted the secret about my blog! I'm glad you enjoy reading it, and i'm glad you like the photo too! I'll definitely keep making posts! :D

Here's a photo, so not to bore you!

A corner shop (convenience store) selling lots of American candy and cereals! The window was much bigger but this is the only snap I got. No longer to overpriced Cyber Candy!

End of HIBISCGYARU

Hello everyone, this post marks the end of HIBISCGYARU


Since the beginning of the year, theres been a clear problem with drama and friendships and lots of stuff and theres always been a funny tension in the air since that. HIBISCGYARU has always been a blast and its been great to get to know everyone and to meet all the people that have passed through over the past 2 years but I feel that due to recent events and old things, its time for the circle to close.

The circle isn't closing because of one particular thing, its just the time for HIB to fade out. HIB has always been something different to everyone and in the end, it hasn't all really gone to plan or turned out the way it could have done. Everyone knows that all the members are good people and kind and yes there is the two friendship groups, and yes, obviously I have a bad attitude about certain issues and people, but thats always going to be just my opinion and ive never meaned to involve the circle in my ranting and raving in anyway.

I don't want people to see HIB as another BOOTEEK as we all know that's not the case, id just rather people actually respected the circle and its members as real people, rather than just bitches on the net (which is mainly due to me, yes I don't mind taking that blame) but I hope you can see where im coming from.

Im not sure what will happen after this, but ive never had such an amazing time in my life since meeting everybody, and meeting new people has actually boostd my confidence (maybe a little bit too much) but I think its made me a better person in the long run

Thank you all~

p.s. this DOESN'T mean the end of the strongest uk girls....HIBISCGYARU will ALWAYS be known as number 1 and the strongest

getgetgetready

Hi y'all!

We got our computer back today.....diagnosis?


Bad.  Haha!

It STILL has a virus on it! Its like, stuck in the registry like superglue! Ive tried so many things to get rid of it but it just won't go. We've worked out its definitely something on my user account but what it is, we don't know. The guy said he deleted my profile and put it back on again...but...he kind of deleted the wrong profile... haha

He's reinstated my old user area that got broken. I couldn't log in but I could still access files through other user accounts. He hasn't actually sorted my current one. *Sigh* NEED MY OWN LAPTOP!!!!
But yeah, this blog was definitely a lot easier to post than my mobile one. I checked it out and there are so many mistakes! It was on a blackberry too! They're supposed to correct you!

The girl at work IS stuck! So ill be covering for her until she gets back. She's stuck in a luxury 5 star hotel in the sun. Poor thing :( But more money for me..yay! I thought id bring you a picture post from this week! Just to show you the kind of things ive been getting up to and seeing, as I think wordswordswords are just a little boring sometimes.

Some other stuff...Tomorrow the galcir is having an oldschool meet. So like, old gal styles, like denim!!! and white loafers!!!! and gross manba!!! woo!!

and best of all,.....TAN!

ill bring photos when, and if I can

Ciao!

Good Friday and the Easter weekend

Happy Easter holidays guys!

It sucks, its my bloody 6 day weekend (5 now that its Friday) and I have nout to do! Yesterday I saw my man, but he only stayed a little bit because he went out to see his friends. I stayed up watching OutKast videos and Buffy The Vampire Slayer.....; D

My Friday nights are so dry now! I never do anything :( I remember going out all the time...and now I don't. Which I guess is good for my purse, but it gets boring! And then the weekend is overrrrrrr

Oh! And to update you on the job front - that telephone interview I had for the lifestyle place...the woman was so unreliable and unprofessional, my god. She never contacted me on Monday or Tuesday, and when I emailied her on Wednesday to share my annoyance and such, she said she would contact me at 5:15 that evening. Come 5:15 and nothing! She didn't get round to calling me 'til yesterday at like 2:30 and I didn't get the job anyway; she sent me an email saying that they were "impressed" with me, but oter candidates were "exceptionally better" ... haha. The meeting with the recruitment agency for the Tolworth Tower job went well. I was late though, but only because I got lost! The guy said that they need to stop giving out the directions they send out because they're wrong :z .... the interview itself will take place around the 19th April, so I hope to god I get something..

My computer's internet won't work, so im using my dad's old laptop which he gave to us a couple years back and I subsequently smashed the screen internally whilst playing Tomb Raider so it was a little "out of action" for a while. It also has no "H" key, just a button where the thing used to be. Its very annoying. The internet won't work on the computer, but it will on this laptop so its like wth is going on. All my pictures etc etc are stored on there so I have to resort to using Memory USB if I really want something. There is also no proper language packs as its only Windows 2000 or XP or something so Ive installed the JP ones, but I still can't type in Japanese, only copy and paste, so that makes things a little more annoying.

I must say, I really am liking the new member of HIBISCGYARU, Floz. She's so down to earth and sweet! We all had a great time last weekend trotting around Selfridges and then having a really long, but good, talk in Macdonalds~ I also want to answer more questions!!!!!!
Formspring meeeeeeeeeee

General ranting

This blog is full of annoyed Koneko-ness so im warning you now!

2010 doesn't seem to have started very well to be honest. Its only been 2 months into the new year and already its been filled with stupid, pretty drama and arguments (one of which I have already owned up to for starting and I managed to stop it), and just general shittiness.

First of all, HIBISCGYARU. Since the meeting that we had in January, the attitude of everyone seems to have really changed and its strange and in a way seems like everyone really dislikes me. I put in so much work and it always seems to get thrown back in my face without a thanks or anything at all. I know there are people who do appreciate what I do, but others don't or just hide it and it makes me wonder why I even bother sometimes. I know I can be a pretty strong-willed person and that some of the things I say come across as really horrible and nasty, but ive never denied being a bitch. Im not going to say something and then lie and say I didn't say it. Im owning up to being a bitch and if you get in my line of fire, its not on purpose, but more a case of being in the wrong place at the wrong time.

I can snap at small things and I can hold grudges. I once wouldn't speak to a girl who is now my best friend for 2 whole years. We used to be really good friends and then she lied to me about loads of stuff so I couldn't trust her and then she got dragged up to Essex by my ex boyfriend, who she was also dating at the time but lied about it, and was forced to become an adult at 14. It was the bf saying loads of stuff to her to make her think that she had no friends and that but she did stuff to me which wasn't right either, so I refused to talk to her. I hate it when people get the bad end of the stick from me and assume everyone from HIB is the same as me. Im just the leader, or should I say, president of the Galcir (now), so I will defend it at all costs! And whatever I do to defend it is what I shall do, regardless!

But what still gets to me is that there are girls in the circle that are soooo fake! Girls that say im wrong for saying something bitchy about one person and then saying loads of shit about them 2 minutes later, and THEN being all nice to the person they've been a bitch about! It's not on! Also, because of the new rules and things that are being introduced, theres definitely a different air about everyone, but what I don't understand is that everyone agreed on them, so its not like im dictating something and saying everyone has to follow it! Ffs!

THIS IS HOW I FEEL

Secondly; I keep thinking more and more about Japan and its driving me as crazy as I look in the above picture, so I figure I might have to do something about it before I kill someone or something like that. Me and my girl Nij were originally planning in the very very beginning, which is like 2 years ago now (!), to go on the Working Holiday Visa for a year in December 2008, but after doing lots of research for places to live and jobs etc, we didn't. We then though "well, let's go on it NEXT December!" and that was of course, 2009, and what did we do? Go for a 2 week holiday instead...lol. And now, it being 2010, our thoughts are going out to doing the same thing again, but this time ACTUALLY going through with the plan. This time however, we are thinking of going in September. I don't know why, but it just seems a good time. There are several things stopping us though;

Niijii's problems:
1. No job, so therefore no financial backing to go ahead and do this, even if it's 6 months away
2. He's unsure of his future, and what he would want to do in Japan as a job
3. He's just started doing Nail/Makeup/Hair training at the salon where I got my nails done and is being offered a course for free sometime during the year (and the courses are hell expensive!) but won't be able to just get up and leave because the woman doing the training won't be happy, and he would have to try and find ways to pay for the course himself at some other point which might be too difficult
4. If he doesn't go to Japan this year and carries on with the training and actually goes through with doing the course, he's scared he might not want to go back to Japan any other time because he won't be interested in it in the same ways as he is now, and that he will miss out on things he could have done at his age/point in his life now

Koneko's problems:
1. Job. I already mentioned about me having to look for another job, and although im looking now, if I don't apply for something, I could possibly be kicked out of my current job before September so its risky not to get into another job before this happens
2. Bad saving habits. The reason I was able to go last time was due to all of my emergency taxes that had been taken from me for the past 2 years were refunded back to me in one lump sum from the two jobs I had been working, so that was loads (over £1000) and I also had money stored away in another account. I do have an ISA, but the money in there is for a set amount of time, and even though it's my money and my account, I don't have any access to it :s and my parents don't want me to just take it out and be done with it. Plus, you can only take out the whole thing in one go, not bits at a time. But dude, I have £3000 in there!!!!!!!!!!!!! £3000 for potential places to live/shopping at 109!
3. My partner. I have only been with him for roughly 9 months now (on the 27th this month), but I know id be making a big mistake if I went away and he wanted to end things. I really can't see myself with anyone else at this current point in time and id hate to throw everything away, but its difficult because Ive wanted to go and live in Japan for the year way before I met him (as mentioned above), so if I didn't go, it would be a selfish decision to myself. I spoke to him about it before and he understands that its something I want to do and won't really have much of an opportunity to do again if I don't just take the chance, and said he will wait for me, so that we can still be together even if im in another country for a long time, but I don't want to stop him from what he wants to do, and he doesn't want to stop me....He's the best thing that's ever happened to me, so you can probably understand why I really don't want to let him go, I mean, it would be a waste! I support him, and I know he supports me, but its a big thing to ask of someone....;'( 


Apart from these big issues. I also need/want a half wig. Prisila preferably, but ALAS they don't do it in my hoe bleach blonde #613 colour :z There are some classy ones I have found on the net:

£56.99. My colour, and a lot looser than the above, but still like it

£35. My color, AND classin as hell!

I might go for the last one...What do you guys think?