Sweet 2016

Hello, hello!

I haven't posted here in such a long, long time, and I found last night that I was able to resurrect my blog!

The main reason why I had stopped posting was due to the crossover from Blogger to GoDaddy.
Originally, I purchased my domain name, hibkoko.com, from Blogger. When Blogger moved this service over to GoDaddy, I managed my domain through there, until GoDaddy decided to sell the URL on.... Fabulous!

I couldn't access my blog at all. And last night, I was finally able to access it, for the first time in at least a year and a half!

So here we have it. Whether I carry on blogging at hibkoko or change to a brand new name, I'll be sticking to this from now on. I used to have such passion for blogging, and I wanted to reignite that passion I once had.

So for now, let's have a bit of a catch up, as my life has changed quite a lot since I last posted.

Let's see...


So the last time I posted:
I was 23 years old.
I had been living at home with my parents again for a while.
I was working as an Assistant Manager for a Topshop store.
I had silver hair.
I had a few facial piercings.
I had one tattoo.

Although not huge topics, these are some main, and noticeable (visually especially) things in my life that have changed!

Roll on 2016 (even though I'm still going to be writing 2015 on everything for the next few months) and all of the above, has now become the below:

I'm 25 years old. 

How on earth did this happen?!! To be honest, I've had the attitude and mindset of a grandmother for many years now so it's not like it makes so much of a difference.

I live alone again.

Okay, so not totally alone. I live with Aimee! I'll have been living with her for two years in March.

I work in Head Office for Topshop Topman.

I work Monday to Friday again, woohoo! I enjoy my job so much more, and I have such a lovely team. (That's me on my last day in store above, and below, is me and some of my team now.)

I'm a blonde....again?

Yeah.... so I always end up going back to blonde. Long time followers of this blog will know that! I did go dark blue and mint green by mistake back in 2014 actually!

I only have three piercings now.

Okay, so not the most important thing, alongside not having silver hair, but it was a pretty big change! I now only have my right nostril, septum, and tongue piercing.

I now have a fair few tattoos...

That's some of them. 90% of the tattoos are on my legs, and it looks like they're the part of my body that will be most covered! 

I'm really looking forward to writing more entries and really getting to know everyone again, and hopefully, everyone can get to know me again too!

girls on top

Hello!

So, since I posted last week about my new house and how happy I was...well, things have taken a slightly different turn. A turn for the worse, but also a turn for the ..good??

The same evening I wrote the post about how happy I was and that we were moving etc (it has since been removed, so I'm sorry if you didn't get the chance to read it!) Adam didn't come home until 2am, after I had posted a status on Facebook worried sick about him. The next day, he was angry at me for writing it, and after work that night, when we came home he told me he had been unhappy about our relationship for a few months, had started to like someone else (that he works with) and not really loved me as much during this time. He also said that the status I wrote got him told off at work and it made him look "unprofessional" because his colleagues could see it (even though his work wasn't even mentioned). Not really sure how that one works....

Anyway, on Tuesday he officially ended things with me, (after thinking I already knew things were over) and so, I HAVE moved out, and I'm back living with my parents, which in a way, I'm actually really happy about! I'm so grateful to have such a loving and supporting connection of friends and family to help me get through this whole thing. Today I moved the last bits out of our old place and I didn't really feel sad, but it was a bit upsetting to see the room how it was with all my stuff gone. Today I've felt quite good and I know it's going to get better from here!

The hardest parts for me to deal with, and for both of us is how things ended. There are always two sides to a story, whether they be good or bad, and I think that even though I *think* I deserve the right to be really angry and super upset because there is now a 3rd person involved who is potentially going to take someone away from me forever, the same thing is obviously happening to him (minus the 3rd person) and sometimes things get so misconstrued. It's not easy for me not to write certain things online just to make me feel better because that's usually a quick fix for frustration and in the long run, it's not the best idea. I've been burned by doing that before, so I've learnt to be more careful about the things I say online and to whom I say them to, because online, anyone can see what you write. Even if you delete something, there is a always a memory of it somewhere that could come back to haunt you later on in life. Damn hackers!

Realistically, this has been hard both mentally and physically, as we lived together, and moving physically out of someone's life is so shit. That wasn't the case with my previous boyfriend so the break-up was a little easier, but it still hurt. In this case we grew apart, but there are always things that can be fixed (from the way I see it anyway). I guess if you really want to try, things can hopefully become better, but if you don't want to try then things can't, and they feel even more shit. I think one thing that upsets me is that while I think that the problems we have together are fixable, Adam doesn't seem to think so. I'm not sure if it's because I'm too naive to think that way or if it's because I don't want to let go to what we had, but it almost seems like an unwillingness to make things right. That, I've told him!

When you want to give your life to someone and it's someone who you've never cared for more than anything in the world before, this comes with such a hard blow. I was ready (and deep down, still am) to give my life to him, to have kids and settle down and make a life for ourselves. He is the first person I've ever told that to, and the only one who has ever made me feel that way. That's not something that can change overnight, you could dislike someone overnight, but you can't change the way you feel about them deep down. Adam told me that he felt the same way and that would never change for him, but when someone is breaking up with you and saying that, it feels so hard to believe and understand. I sound like a weird psycho ex-girlfriend who could be pleading with the other half to get back together, but it's because this has been the best thing to ever happen to me, and now it's pretty much gone. You can't make someone feel a certain way and you can't make them do what you want them to, but again, deep down and really lodged away inside, I still really feel like we could get through this, look past the things that caused us to drift and begin again.

And so on to new beginnings. A trip to Japan, Paris and plenty of other things are in the works and I feel like I have so many opportunities and experiences to grab a hold of! Now I just have to sift through the crap that I've accumulated and eBay/throw the stuff I don't want! Thank goodness for free listing fees this weekend!

I AM ON TOP!

Getz

Hello!

I wanted to share some recent "gets" with you! As I'm lazy and can't be bothered to take photos on my phone, here are some brilliant stock photos for your enjoyment :D

1: TOPSHOP Acid Wash Denim Hotpants
Lalalalalalalalove these, they are comfy and my butt hands out of them~~<3 p="">

2: TOPSHOP Bleach Denim Dungarees

I look like the cutest farm-hand ever in these. I used to wear Dungarees all the time when I was a kid, and essentially, I'm still a kid, so these are perfect for me

3: New Look Leopard Print Cabin Bag
My friend Maria from work has this bag and for months I've been like "Damn, I'm getting that bag" and the stores near me never have it, and it's ridiculously hard to find online (does not come up when you search for "leopard" or in the Bags section...wtf)

4: TOPSHOP Leopard Print Leggings
After seeing so many people that I work with wearing these leggings, I had to hunt them down (they're from last year/the year before) and so I found some (in pristine condition) on eBay for about £6. Sorted

5: Primark Mens "NY LA" and Sugar Skull Tees

MENS STUFF AGAIN OMG. Because I like the designs. And plus, this girl also has the skull tee :D I'll probably do some cutting on the tops, purely because I want them to look slightly different. The "NY LA" one was reduced, and I think I'll turn it into a vest, and possibly make the skull one off the shoulder. WHO KNOWS.

Noticed how these "gets" aren't anything to do with my "wants" from last week? That's because I haven't gotten around to ordering them just yet :) Pretty much all the items (except the lipstick) are online and I haven't seen them in my store or a store near me yet. The lipstick came into my store and I was actually really disappointed, and it is now OFF the list! In the photo it looks like more of a "bubblegum" purple colour but irl it's more of a darker purple. NOT what I wanted. Damn.

As well as spending money and not paying my rent again, I went to a potential room viewing today which went super fantastically well, and I would quite like to possibly say yes. YAY.

I'll leave you with a great song from BoA! A dance I totally want to learn:

QUIT IT

Hello! It's been well over a month I believe since I last posted, and yes I always say that I will write a big post soon, or something similar, but yes! It will get there...eventually!

I do have some news to share... So, I quit my job at Cyberdog. Yeppers.

It was time for me to move on, and while I don't really need to justify any reasons for me leaving to lots of people on the internet, I would say that my leaving was mostly happy, if maybe except for some issues, but hey - that always happens right?

So, yeah! (I say that way too much irl) And you may be wondering (or may not be) what my plans are next. The answer is simple! GET ANOTHER JOB SO I CAN STILL PAY RENT YAY! And I do have a new job! Yes, as of tomorrow, I will be working for Topshop!

It's a big change from what I've been so used to for almost 2 years of my life, but I think change is a good thing. Tomorrow I will be starting training for two days and on Wednesday I shall start in my new branch! I'll be going in at top level as a Supervisor, which could prove difficult, but that's one of the challenges I'll have to overcome if I want to go anywhere!

Last night was my leaving drinks from Cyberdog, and I must admit, come tomorrow morning it will be very strange not to get on a train and head for Camden Town :s Cyberdog has been a big part of my life, and so many awesome things happened while I was there, and genuinely, I will be sad that I have left. Some may say it's too early, while others may say the time is just right. Who knows? Me, I suppose, and for me, it's just the right time to get a new lease on life.

I will be sure to update you on my progress, and share how my life will be going!

So this entry isn't entirely boring (as mine seem to be as of late, which I apologise for!), here are some of my instagram photos from the past month-ish to keep you on track, just in case you forgot what I look like :D

Ingvild and me <3 td="td">

A purple day!

Heather and me at work 8D

"A kit to invoke Veronica" - A wonderful piece of jewellery made by my chica Sara

My hair is really silver at the moment, reminds me of when I first bleached my hair ;D

How my mornings usually start!

A "Bubblelicious" Sundae from Afters!

A drawing Anastasija made for me as a leaving gift. It's all make-up!  

Last night with my chica 

Yesterday with Nathaniel  

You can keep up to date with me on instagram by following/stalking me @hibkoko, and if you don't have the app, you can follow me online at webstagram

Talk soon!

News

Hi guys!

As the title of the post suggests, I have some things to tell!

Well, it's only one thing for the moment, I don't have much else happening (that I know of!) right now~ So the news?

I'm moving out of my parents house and in with my boyfriend! Okay, so im not having a baby or getting married, but for me, it's, pretty substantial!

I'm really excited because it feels so right with Adam. We've been together for 7months, which isn't a long time, but we're both really serious about wanting to build a future together and moving in with a partner is the first step!

I'll be moving into the flat Adam is living in at the moment, where i've been staying every so often for the time we've been together. It's great because the location is nice, we're equally close to two tube stations, the landlady is lovely, the people living downstairs are lovely, and the community seems great! I've had the odd occasion where people have said weird stuff to me or shouted insults, but unfortunately, that kind of thing happens way too often now, no matter where you are.

I sent my references form off today and that's step one complete! Only one more step to go, and then it's official! Obviously I have to wait for the references to come back, but as i'm not a paedo or bankrupt, im confident things will be just fine 8D

Me and Adam can't wait to scour the the Ikea catalogue and buy random crap for our room! P.s. Random photo is of a HUGE potato I found in Tesco last night!