sickly and life

Hello!

Wow, I had no clue I had actually only posted one entry in May :s Sorry about that!
WELL the good news is that I have lots to write about and for you all to read about, so essentially it's not too bad!

As my title suggests (not that any of my titles ever make sense unless it's about a serious topic such a hair/beauty/trips haha) I was a bit weird and sickly over May! More so over the last week and a bit. Don't worry, I'm not horrendously ill! The weird thing that I got (and I'm not even sure how really) was an infection in my thumb, So basically, my thumb turned really voodoo and started to swell up and hurt like hell. At first I thought I had maybe hit it really badly and there was a bruise underneath the nail, so I took of my nail varnish...and there was nothing there. Hmm. Super strange. So I left it for about 2 weeks (totally clever) until it got to the point where it was throbbing, I couldn't bend it properly and if I tried to use it, it was a bad idea.

I rang up the NHS helpline one Saturday and described my symptoms and was met with the response of "why on EARTH have you decided to leave it this long?? You SERIOUSLY need to go to a doctor or A&E right away". Shit. ':D I was told an out of hours GP would contact me (which they didn't) but I decided to go to A&E after work. I got to spend a glorious 2 hours in a waiting room with lots of small children crying, when all I wanted to do was sleep/watch Eurovision/be out with my friends/etc. Yeah. There was no TV. So no Eurovision! I heard that England and Ireland were shit. Again. Haha.

By the time I saw the doctor, I pretty much diagnosed myself for him and he just hmm-ed and ahh-ed and went along with what I said. The other weird part about it is that there is no entry wound or any visible place to the infection, so it was hurting really badly but there was no obvious sign to show why or where :s He prescribed me with some medication, yay! But by the time I saw him, the late night pharmacy was closed. Great. So, early the next day (on a sunny Sunday) I went to go and get my drugs! And I'm pleased to say THEY BLOODY WORK YAY. I am a bit awful at taking any kind of medication though and often forget so I still have a full day to take after forgetting to take them with me to work...oops. I noticed yesterday what looks like a bruise underneath my nail...I hope this goes away haha. I also went to go and see The Great Gatsby the same day! It's an amazing film. Not my regular choice, but definitely a great one to see, literally! It's most definitely a Luhrmann film too, considering the whole 1920s setup and...Jay Z (???) music infusion.

I literally had one week in May where I was busy every single night. WHAT. I have never ever been that popular haha. But I really enjoyed it! Being cooped up at home is so boring. Here is a small catalogue of my face during these last few weeks;

NO MAKEUP WOOHOO. And I have more eyebrow than this now too....

This was on an evening I went to go and see Anastasija!

This was after I spent a wonderful day baking with Maria!

I took this lovely high-res photo on my sister's camera. ITS SO HIGH DEF I DON'T LIKE IT 100% but  my hair is nice :D

This was from a night out when I went to a friend's leaving drinks! BEST NIGHT!

Me and Maddie from above said night..haha

Amongst photos of my face, here are a few photos of stuff that's happened too! (all photos are from my Instagram, which you can view in the right hand corner of this blog!)

OMG RIGHT. My friend Akihiro went to Japan for a trip and brought me back these amazing gifts!

BAKING! Me and Maria made cookies and cupcakes and vegetarian spaghetti bolognese too! We are pros <3 td="">

My friend Georgina came back to the UK for a visit and brought Pennie with her again!

I have a Vine too now! You can follow me @hibkoko

So yes!! Exciting times. I want to share these few videos with you too, as they are HILARIOUS and keep me going when I feel a bit meh. 

MILES JAI NEVER FAILS. I LOVE HIM.

The girls are back!!

See you all soon(er)!! AND OMG I GO TO PARIS ON FRIDAY AHHHHHHH

sparkling

Hello everyone!

Apologies for not posting much last month! April has really flown by - I can't believe we're now 5 months into 2013.....

And it feels like so much has happened, and so much more is yet to come! So, I have things to fill you in with! The first thing I should mention is that I changed my hair colour! I know I didn't have my dark pink/purple and blue (the dye that I did myself, after switching up the original job done by the salon) mermaid mix for very long (only about a month or so) but whilst I did really love it, I got less fond of it :(

I think I definitely prefer a more pastel shade nowadays, but in no way do I regret the triple mix :) I've gone back to my in-between (if you know me in real life, you'll know this stage well - it's the "blonde" stage in the middle of another hair colour yet to come) for the moment, mainly because I want a break from super bright colours and because I want to be silvery for a bit too!

Here's my hair story over the month in a few photos:

And then this was my hair on Friday (3rd May) with no filter on the photo

And then my hair today! (Saturday, 4th May - again, with no filter)

You can see some lavender tones and slight blue too! In real life it's a lot more silvery looking, which is beautiful! I think at some point I want to revisit a bright blue, as it was a colour I had never done before, and I actually think it suited me quite well! I don't think I'd have it all over though, it would most likely be a half and half job I think.

I found this photo online the other day of model Airica Michelle 

I think you can see where I'm going with this idea...;D We'll see! 

Anyway, I'll still be a wondrous mermaid for you all as I plan to put some pastel streaks/strands/BITS AND BOBS into my hair to keep it looking cute and all. I actually found a load of hair tinsel in a drawer the other day too! (I used to wear this stuff 2 years ago! Now it seems popular amongst Black Diamond members)

ACTUALLY bringing a point to light, thinking about it. When I had pink hair and was still really Gal etc and wore loads of d.i.a. (3 YEARS AGO) people used to think I looked stupid and thought my hair was excessive and didn't "fit" with Gal blah blah. Fast forward to 2012/13 and look at Black Diamond! People can't get enough of the girls. Fair enough I didn't tan, but the whole crazy hair and similar outfits? Credit to the girls (whether or not they be a Galcir) for looking the way they do, but I can't help but laugh at those who once said my look was stupid and would never look good :)

Anyway. Off track.

One of the things I think I'm looking forward to most about having lighter hair is THE ABILITY TO WEAR THINGS. You'd be surprised how difficult it can be to wear things with brightly coloured hair. Especially when you don't wear neon/brightly coloured clothes. Black is fine, and it's always been (and always will be) my staple colour of choice. It's the other colours I struggle with! How lame does that sound?? I love my pastel clothing too (love to bring a bit out in the Summer) but again, my bright hair looks too severe with it :( Maybe this is just my opinion, but I'll pretty much be happy to not clash with my wardrobe as much!

Other than my hair, I've been chilling out and meeting with friends and getting sunburnt! I went to Circa with Dec for his birthday which was fab. I've been really happy as of late, feeling like a brand new person! I've even gone on a few dates ;D But that's another story....

Last Tuesday I met up with my friend Maddie who I used to work and live with and we went to Westfield in Shepherd's Bush for some Retail Therapy! Their TOPSHOP is actually amazing. A lot better than the Oxford Circus one! Brighter, a nice selection, and easy to shop. Done, sorted! Happy customer. I purchased some tiny shorts, a beanie and some socks. Because one can never have too many socks. Especially if those socks are ankle length, black, and have frills around! That makes for one, happy Eilish. 

The strawberry pouch has rings in it. From H&M, not TS lol.

AND AND AND!!Yes! Two amazing tops! One has a cat with a moon on it! And yes!! The other DOES indeed say "DON'T BE SUCH A MERMAID". Brilliant (albeit a little tacky). Had to have them! I also bought Mom jeans (at work). I love them and do not judge me. 

On Wednesday I met Yukika for dinner and then I stayed over at Tasha's house with Maddie, Hev and Charlotte! All girlies I used to work with and don't get to see that often. Hev is going away for 2 months :( Upset at that!!

Maddie <3 td="">

Me and my Hev <3 td="">

Last time we hung out/got hideously drunk and twerked all night it was super fun! This time around we just had a girly night and watched Mean Girls haha! Had a shit experience on my way though... It's always North London that I seem to attract the weirdos in! Long story short, this creepy black guy wanted to talk creepy to me so I moved away and then he shouted at me, walked away, came back, and kicked me in the leg :z and then kept going away and coming back and tried to follow me onto my bus and then stared at me until the bus drove off. Great :z:z

I think that's pretty much it for my news this week! I've also lost some weight somehow... Strange!

p.s. I bought another dress. I need a chance to be sexy though plz.thankz.

donc

Bonsoir!

I wanted to let you all know about some exciting news (it keeps coming, I tell ya!) about some upcoming trips that I have to the wonderful Parisian streets of France!

Yep, that's right, I'm going to Paris! I haven't been since 2007/8 when I went on a school trip (lol) but I used to go to France quite a lot with my family via the Eurotunnel and Eurostar. I think my parents really wanted to make sure me and my sister were "cultured" in some way or another and really enjoyed taking us on day-trips to see France! It's so weird thinking that you can essentially be in another country in about an hour! (dependant on the journey type of course)

Photos from the last time I was in Paris...5 years ago! I look so different in that middle picture (on the left!)

Anyway, I'll be going to Paris twice in the next few months, how lucky! But this is going to be pretty awesome too, as I haven't been anywhere abroad this year, with my last two trips abroad being in the late summer of last year! I'll be going first in May with my Japanese friend Yukika, who I met at the end of last year and who is coming to study in England from April-June! She's so cute, and I actually met her through a music artist, after seeing her in a video on YouTube! I started following her on Instagram and we became friends! It's crazy what can happen online!

Here we are at M&M's world!

She has never been to Paris and wanted to go really badly, and after uploading some photos of Tokyo Disney and Disney Sea on her IG, I was thinking "hmm... maybe we should do Euro Disney!" so, yeah! It's happening! I'm so amped to go! I haven't been to Euro Disney, only Tokyo Disney & Disney Sea!

Tokyo Disney Sea '09

Tokyo Disney '10

I really want to wear my Mickey/Minnie ears hat around the park...I hope I don't forget to pack it!! We'll also be exploring Paris for a day, and it will be nice to find souvenirs and things to take photos of! Haha, what a typical tourist! My second trip to Paris will be in July  and I'll be going with the lovely Michelle who runs Roxie Sweetheart and some other really amazing girls, like Ellen from Cyberdog Brighton! We'll be going to Japan Expo which is something I've wanted to go to for a long time, but never really got around to sorting a trip out! I know there was a UK Japan Expo back in 2007/8 but apparently it wasn't very good, and I don't think they've done one since! I've heard so many great things about the one in Paris, so I'm really excited to be going!

Well, of course I'll be sharing photos and videos of my trips, and of course I shall write about them! I hope you're looking forward to these entries! I'll leave you with this really empowering song by Bif Naked, one of my favourite artists! I felt a bit strange today and listening to this really brought my mood up! Enjoy <3 p="">

revert and revibe

Hello!

It's a cold, and kind of sunny morning here in the UK. It's also the start of my 2 days off, woo hoo! I also have Easter Sunday off as my store is closed (score) so it's almost like I have 3 days off this week - except that our work week runs from a Sunday, so that means I have this Sunday and then next Tuesday of....Wow, I'm boring, haha!

Anyway, as the titles suggests, I've been thinking a lot about "RE" things in my life. Such as, RE-doing a lot of the things I used to do that I've found myself slipping away from over the past few years.

One of the things that took a hit was definitely this blog! I ended up going through this phase of wanting to blog, and then going to do it and then thinking "oh, maybe I'll do it later" and it kind of became a strange routine in a way, and then it would be months between each post, and that's a bit shit, considering I used to blog a good few times a week, with really interesting (to me anyway, lol) posts! If you've noticed, I have been blogging a lot more, as these early starts really do help! Although most of the time, I'm getting up to go to work etc, but even on the days I'm not working, I feel way more motivated and less lazy, which is almost a grace, as I can be super lazy!

Another thing is the way I look. I'm not happy with my body, or really the way I look all that much any more, but that's my own "fault" essentially I guess! The laziness ties in with this, as sports and fitness are my LEAST preferred thing in the whole world (next to spiders too). I've noticed that I've fallen out of the shape I used to be, and it's one of those age-old things that gets you down, and no-one but YOU can help yourself. Nobody can say or do anything to make you work, it has to be all about you! That's definitely where I fail hardest. I think I can get the motivation for certain things but other things are the biggest struggle ever! Look at how I used to look in 2011:

Pretty much my last photo shoot right there. And the 'tog that took these pictures ROYALLY PISSED ME OFF. This was from a shoot I did with Georgie back in April 2011 that I talked about here (a lot of the photos in this post died, sorry about that! I don't know why??) and the photographer NEVER sent me my photos, so the only ones I saw were this one and a head shot. He told me he kept sending me my CD and it kept getting sent back to him. Bullshit. Especially when you give him 3 DIFFERENT ADDRESSES to try! I contacted him again about a month ago asking for them again and he gave me another made-up story of "oh um I was robbed, so I don't have anything now". Yada yada yada. Basically, this has left me in such a weird loop with any kind of modelling. I even stopped working with Marc, all down to me again, mainly because of the whole body thing, and also because I wasn't even sure in myself any more. It's kind of sad in a way, because I've managed to lose that one line of my life almost.

BUT. With this NEW life-force I have acquired, I hope to RE-gain what was once lost! I've been looking up fitness classes and ways to keep in shape and to help you look your best. This is for ME personally, and is not a goal that I'm trying to achieve for others (before you ask). I want to join the gym, go to some classes and really get my strength back. I used to be able to practise Para for 3hrs a day. Now I can't even go for 10 minutes without getting so out of breath and wanting to flop on the floor! Pathetic! Lol! I just want to be hot again, haha! I've always wanted to try Pole - little known fact - and someone at work mentioned that she went to a class with her friend the other week and I though, hmm, why not?? I'm going to be so grateful for payday - my bank account won't be - but I'll be booking, and clicking away and hopefully finding some good things to get me back into shape!

After going to see Brooke Candy, I actually felt really proud of my body, as she is one of those women who can make you feel really good about yourself and to love what you have. So I started to love my booty (it's there!) and the way I looked in underwear, but I think the blow of the breakup really made me slouch into a void and made me hate the way I look. Don't get me wrong, I'm not about to go on some crazy power-diet thing and become all anorexic and stuff! I love food WAY TOO MUCH to ever give it up. It's more about not buying so many sweets and cokes and things like that...haha. I watched a video this morning about stomachs and in the video, the lady put a life-size plastic stomach on a plate and was basically saying that your stomach can only take so much, you can't overdo it, and that really shocked and surprised me to think that, actually, yes, I think that's one thing a lot of US are capable of, over-filling ourselves and perhaps not really realising it! 

Staying on the subject of food, I might be going to an American style place for lunch today....I hear they serve great pulled pork! THIS IS WHY I CAN NEVER NOT EAT LOL.

3 INSPIRATIONS FOR ME RIGHT HERE! KELLY, BROOKE AND GWEN.

my little pony; another hair adventure!

Hello!

WOW I have some amazing photos to share with you all! The first ones are from Tuesday when I was a make-up model for Dec! Let me share a bit more information for you~

Dec's assignment for the class was Cirque du Soleil and as there are like 3 different classes, each one was assigned a different section of the actors/characters from the show. Dec's class had to do the clown section! That was quite fun, knowing we would all literally be looking either really crazy or either really hilarious! To be honest, the reality is that Dec was the only one who really stepped out of the box (the jack-in-the-box??) to create his look on me, and I'm not just saying that because he's my friend and I know he's talented! Pretty much the whole class had obviously googled a photo of "clown" and their models ended up each with a slightly different version of a harlequin clown crossed with typical "jolly" clown make-up, and we had to sort out outfits too (the model's jobs), pretty much all of them had the typical clown candy colour 'fro. NO ORIGINALITY!!  The girls really did make an effort but it was a shame there wasn't more individuality in the group.

Except for Dec! That's where the true vision came in lol! Especially with the hair too - Dec made his own wig with real human hair! Want to see some pictures? Okay, if you insist!

haha had to add this one!!

What do you think?! Brilliant or what? It was super fun! And it really was great to see Dec too <3 p="">

It's still weird that on my days off I won't have much to do any more, mainly because most of my friends are usually working during the week (like normal people) so if I don't have a weekend day off, I can't always see them! I have plenty of ideas of ways to fill my time though! Watch this space guys and girls!

This day was great for me as I felt super positive and really happy about the future. I still feel this way, and while we can't predict the future, I feel like mine is going to get better and more exciting from now on! The fun did carry on until today, which was when I was a hair model and got my hair done! I am STOKED at how it turned out, like, I don't think myself OR the hairdresser thought it would turn out this good! This is how my hair was before (no filter on this pic - from earlier today!)

I haven't been putting any dye on it for a few weeks just because of the move and everything and at that point in time I wasn't really all that concerned with the way my hair looked! Plus, I knew the date for the the show would be soon, so it was a better idea to let it fade a bit after a few washes! It still retains a nice pastel pink colour even if I wash it a load of times, so it's guaranteed to look cute still!

And then...

The three colours used on my hair. Now, I usually don't tend to use Crazy Color that much anymore because I find it doesn't always give the results that I want, but I've noticed that a lot of UK salons will use this brand when they do a bright hair colour, mainly because it's accessible (you can get it from most major (and minor) beauty supply outlets, including those specifically for hair salons) and it's not all that expensive. I use Directions by La Riche on my hair currently, mainly because it's cheap, good quality dye that lasts a long time, doesn't stain my clothing/bedding/skin and can also be quite conditioning for your hair. It's also really good for mixing with conditioner! While I love Manic Panic, it's not that easy to get a hold of in the UK unless you buy it from a specific place, and therefore it can be pricey. The tubs are small for the price you pay and in a way, if you have to use a lot of dye for your hair, it doesn't always seem worth it. Their dyes are usually Vegan and the staying power is okay (usually dependant on how often you wash your hair) but from my experiences, the dye can also stain things pretty badly (skin/bedding/clothing and even sinks/baths/tiling) and when it does eventually fade, the pigments go really weird. For example, when my hair was Hot Hot Pink it ended up going a really vivid pink with an almost purple tone to it, but after a few washes, the pink pigments came out quite quickly and it turned a weird orangey colour, which I found strange. Their dyes also aren't the best to use with conditioner, but they have just released a brand new "Manic Mixer/Pastel-izer":

BUT again, you can also use their "Virgin Snow" to mix hair dyes down...a little known fact! Anyway, I still really love CC and MP but at the moment I guess you could say I've taken a "break" from using their colours :)

ANYWAY, carrying on with MY CURRENT hair colour! The three colours we used were "Hot Purple", "Capri Blue" and "Pinkissimo". I've actually used all of these colours at some point! When I had purple hair, I mixed the the blue and purple together to create the colour I wanted:

And when I first dyed my hair bright pink, my hairdresser at the time used the pink to do it:

SO! Here is the result! All three colours were mixed with conditioner and then we also used the pink in neat form for the roots....

THE FINAL PRODUCT AHHHHHHHHHH

HOW AMAZING DOES THIS LOOK?!?!?!?!?!?! There is NO filter used in the above picture, and in real life the colours are even more vivid pastels! I'll try to take a photo in the daylight tomorrow at some point :)

Whilst I was waiting for my roots to bleach before we added the colour, I found this in a magazine and couldn't help but compare:

Hmm..... She's stealing my hair again, lol!

I hope you enjoyed these photos and blog post! See you again soon!